Random Rat

Work Musing 2022

How do people like me the mediocres, the average ambitious, keep up with the rat race? The grinding? The daily showing up? It’s fucking tiring! It’s exhausting! My energy levels just don’t reach to that point!  I am not even bothered by the everyday challenges I face at work like briefing business, boarding shenanigans, meal shortages, unreasonable colleagues and passengers. Those are the things I have dealt with a million times and most probably an expert too. The thing that bothers me however is just the start of it all! The alarm ringing, leaving the bed,    putting the makeup on, and then the uniform, booking the cab and then going down to it, and the ride to work! Not one flight goes by where my endorphins surprised me and tickled my brain cells like ‘hey let’s go to work and do some awesome work’! I was jobless for over a year and tried my hand in some ‘be your own boss’ shit. But it didn’t really work out for whatever reasons. Getting the job back was kind of a blessing, considering I have a family to support. But for one too many times I have felt the burn out of exhaustion, of being the only one trying to provide a better life, for myself and for the family. But, this internal monologue is never ending and quite frankly nothing more than a self rant. At the end of it, I know I have to.

Life is funny. As long as one has a dark sense of humour.